It just seems like the time goes by so fast and I just don’t blog that much.  I thought today was a good day for a blog.  I did a lot of thinking on my drive home from Los Angeles.

I was there mainly to see my best friend, Erika.  She is my friend who was diagnosed with MS 2 years ago.  You will remember that I did the ride for her last Sept and I am doing it again.  The hills are very difficult on the first day and the second day is not as bad, but still a good ride.  Even with that knowledge, and honestly not wanting to go through that painful ride again, I had to push that thought aside and think about Erika.  When she asked if I would do the ride, I could not say, “No.”

The pain I feel from the ride is nothing compared to what she is going through.  This visit was really tough.  She is now walking with a cane and I took her in for a brain scan…one of many that she has had to go through.  On my last visit, I took her in for a brain scan and a spinal scan.  She now has a handicap sign for her car.  It was really tough to see that.  It was really tough to see how tired she is.  It was tough to see her have to take a seat a lot more.  It was even tougher to witness her fall down.

I wanted to cry a couple of times but I saved the tears for my ride home.  I don’t want her to see this.  I want to stay upbeat and positive.  We did P90X and she sat on a chair but at least we got her moving.  I guess that is the key is to remain as active as possible.  She wants to do the charity ride but she is not sure that she will be able to do it.  I told her if she does, I will ride with her and we will have a car pick us up to take us up the harder hills.  I plan on staying by her side the whole time.

She is one of the warmest, caring people I know.  I love Erika like she is my sister.  There is nothing I would not do for her.  I never ask for money from anyone, but I am going to just ask if people could please donate to this cause.  Who knows…maybe that extra dollar leads to a cure for the disease.  It all adds up.  $10 is nothing to donate.

I understand that the economy is bad, and I am taking a whole week off from working (I work freelance so every day counts) just so I can go to San Francisco and do this ride.  I don’t need any gifts.  The best gift would be a donation to this charity.  It is easy to do.  Click on this link below.  Click on the button donate to Tomiko.  It will lead you through the pages to donate.  It’s very simple. You can also look at the side bar on the side where it say MS CHARITY RIDE 2011 and press that button to get to the link.  Your thoughtfulness will be so appreciated.

I don’t know what else to do to help her.

Thank you for listening and thanks for being fans.

xo

Tomiko

http://main.nationalmssociety.org/site/TR?px=7713446&pg=personal&fr_id=16061

Sincerely,
Tomiko

http://main.nationalmssociety.org/site/TR?px=7713446&pg=personal&fr_id=16061

Junior Rest in Peace my Sweet Baby Boy

This cat was so full of personality.  He was clever and always very funny.  He brought a smile to my face and was there for so many bad times and helped me pull through.  I miss him so much.  To see him have a heart attack right in front of me and watch him suffer as the life was taken from him…to hear his last breath and then see his still little body…to have to pick him up in a towel and put him in a bag…to call the number of a service to pick him up and have him turned to ashes…it was a rough late night early AM for me.  I loved him so much and he was so dear to me.

I feel so guilty that I traveled so much.  I felt like a terrible person.  It made me reflect on my life.

Now I feel bad for my last cat, Squeaky.  I don’t feel like I am giving her the attention I gave Junior.  I have lost two cats that I was so close to and never could feel close to her.  I am trying my best, but the sleep deprivation is making me a little short.

I have sleepy pills to help, but I still find that I have a lot of sleepless nights.

Thanks for listening.

Tomiko

I recently went to Reno and got to meet up with an old friend, Renobinder (Author Bruin).  He was responsible for me shooting customs right at the beginning and has been a great friend.  His rigging is really awesome and the clips that I shot there with him are going to be great.  I can’t wait to put them up…all going on my Superheroine store!  Also, I shot with a really awesome and beautiful model, Ashli.  She has never shot video and is new to fetish and she really rocked it. She is half native American so you know her look is going to be quite exotic.  She plays a great villain and I am sure that you are really going to like her in the clips.  I can’t wait to see what people say.

My wrestling has been still going strong.  I am still doing my sessions and getting to wrestle nice people.  I am also still working with webringit and having fun with a pro wrestling company in Chicago.

I feel very blessed to be so fortunate especially with these hard economic times.  I really want to thank everyone for their support (friends and fans).  I really appreciate it.

My heart is full of love right now.  Tender love.  I have a little skip in my walk and there is a smile on my face.  It has helped me through some stressful time with what is going on in Japan, and I am glad that it is there.

Thank you so much for reading.

Goodnight.

xo

Tomiko

Been on a health kick since I found out that I am 100% healthy.  I have decided not to take life for granted and to try things and enjoy as much as I can.

I did this cool charity run on Saturday.  LVTC Trot Up For Spirit.  It is a charity that uses horses for mentally and physically ill children as well as veterans.  It’s great therapy and I felt pretty good about doing this event for this charity.  The people were very nice and since it was my first 5K I was pretty excited to see how I would do.

It was super chilly but it made the run refreshing.  I placed 4th in my age group and 10th in all women participating.

For overall, I was number 33 out of 77 people.  I was pretty excited about that!  Not bad for my first race and I am not even a runner!

I thought it would be a good idea to start doing some 5k races so I am prepped for the sprint triathlon in late March.  I know I have the bike down after doing the century and a half ride for MS.

The next 5 K I am doing is Feb 5 and is for the Make A Wish Foundation.  It will be in Las Vegas.  I am going to start running more and see if I can improve my time.

I am also thinking about doing the Las Vegas Fat Boy 5 K in later Feb, and possibly a cool mud run in AZ in later April.  It looks like a total blast!  I will share a link with you in a future blog…promise.

I started training this morning for my swim part.  It was really difficult so I know that will be the challenge.  My gf came along to give me any tips I need for technique but she thought I looked really good….who would have thought?  lol

I just need to work on my endurance.  Swimming is a totally different beast when it comes to exercise.

I can’t believe I am going to be 44 this month.  I certainly don’t feel anywhere close to that age.  I am actually feeling great.  I changed my diet and cut out red meat entirely.  I mainly have seafood and tofu…don’t really eat chicken or turkey anymore, but may occasionally have that if I feel like it.  I have to tell you…I have tons of energy.

I saw the doc on Friday and she was really pleased with my test results.  Whatever I am doing is working and I am so relieved I can cry.  I am looking forward to this year and the surprises it will bring.  I feel like I have been given another chance at life, and I just want to really go for it and really live fully.

I can truly tell you that I am feeling happy.  Thank you for being there for me and reading my rather sad blogs.  I went through some stuff as you know, but I am so much better now.

I am going to call it a night.  I have been trying to get to bed at a reasonable time and get up early in the morning to start out my day with the gym

Have a wonderful week everyone and thank for stopping by.

xoxo

Tomiko

Anyway, I am writing this to let you know that I am OK.  I mean I really am OK.  It was a false alarm on my health and I am looking at life through a fresh pair of eyes.  I am sorry that I haven’t been good at keeping up with my blogs.  It’s been an emotional journey for me and with my endless traveling and hectic schedule, it has kept me from really being able to sit down and reflect.

I feel very fortunate to have a lot of good people in my life, and I have also been really fortunate to be working a lot this year.  With the economy the way it is, I am so grateful.

My clip stores have all been doing great and I want to thank you for that as well.  All the fans that have continued to support me…it makes me feel full of joy.  I was never popular in high school or even in my younger years, so this has been a real treat to even have any fans or people that even read this silly blog.  I never realized how many people did until people started to write me and ask me about things pertaining to what was written on this thing.

Doing the MS Bike ride was the highlight for me.  Seeing my girlfriend, Erika, rock it was amazing.  I did the ride…the whole 100 miles and 50 the next day.  I still can’t believe I did it, but when you have someone as close and dear to your heart as Erika, you want to do all that you can.  I get to see her next week and am looking forward to it.  She is a person so full of life and just a good person all the way around.  She is my best friend and I am lucky to have someone like her in my life.

There is also someone else that means the world to me.  He lives in Detroit and he is one of the most caring people I know.  He takes care of his 87 year old mother and he works very hard. He is the first person that offers to help someone and when he is your friend, he really is passionate about it.  I am lucky to have him in my life.  He was in a really bad motorcycle accident about a month ago and I flew out to help him out.  I am thankful that he lived.  6 broken ribs and a broken shoulder bone stinks, but at least he is alive.

There is another close friend of mine that I don’t know what I would do without him.  His name is Phil and he lives here in Vegas.  He takes care of my cats, picks up my mail, picks me up at the airport and drops me off when he can.  He has been a tremendous help.  He has also been there for me in my time of need. I can do enough for him to show my gratitude.

The funny thing, is there are a ton more people I can write about and they all live in different cities, but yet, they are always wanting to help and make things easier for me.  I am truly a lucky woman.  I don’t know what I did to deserve this, but I am so thankful.

I know…this sounds so sappy…I just was thinking tonight about all the special people out there that I have in my life and I guess I just wanted to write about it and show my gratitude.

I will try to blog more, but things are just so busy.  I hope to be able to keep up more with the blogging.

Have a great night and Happy early Thanksgiving.

xoxo

Tomiko

Red Rock

I rode all the way from my place to Red Rock Mountain.  I have been training hard and trying to get in condition.  The condition I have makes me a bit off balance and a little dizzy, but I have been very clumsy anyway, so if I fall, I’ll just get right back up.  So far, I have only fallen once with my bike and it was the first day of training. I didn’t get hurt, so no worries.

I plan on getting some second and third opinions and will schedule some doctor appointments once I am done with this ride.  My Sept does not have a lot of open time and in Nevada, scheduling a doctor appointment, let alone several, is quite a challenge, especially if the doctor is a good one.

I had a good day today.  Lots of soul searching and felt at peace on the bike.  I feel like I have been living my life really fully so I have no regrets.  I am not going to worry about anything.  Things happen for reasons.

I also believe that all is not so until things are all really checked so I am not going to be down.

Thank you for being there for me and thank you for the kind emails.

You don’t know how much I appreciate that so many people out there care, and it makes me feel very special.

I feel fortunate to have people like you in my life.  Thank you again.

I am going to try and keep you updated on my progress with the ride and I will be sharing the pics from the event with you once I have done the ride.

It’s not too late for donations.  There is no amount that is too small.  It is really for a good cause and the link can be found on the links on here or you can go to my calendar and there is a direct link there as well.

Thank you so much.

Love,

Tomiko

http://main.nationalmssociety.org/goto/tomiko

I will also be posting it on my links section on the right of my blog.  Even if it is $5, every little thing helps.  My friend is only 32!  There is no cure for this disease, but I am hoping that they money I raise will help speed up the process in finding a cure.

Let me tell you a little something about Erika.

I have known her for over 15 years.  She has been a constant light in my life and has always been there for me through bad and good times.  She is genuine, intelligent, warm, loving, beautiful, funny, street smart, full of life, courageous and the list just keeps going on.  I want to do whatever I can to help her.  She is a part of my heart.

I am not going to let this disease beat her.

Erika and Me

On another note,

I am leaving for Ireland tomorrow and will be sure to share pics with you.  I have to tell you, it will be good for me to go because I think I can do some thinking and reflect.  I have been doing a lot of thinking about my life and just how precious it really is.  I think we take life for granted sometimes, but when things happen in your life unexpected, it really can make you think.

I love you guys.  Thanks so much for listening.

xo

Tomiko

Anyway, I just got back from Detroit.  I got snowed in with flights canceled but it was a lot of fun for me.  I made the best of it and shot some more stuff for my clips.   I had a blast working with all these different people (some new and some repeat).  I really love wrestling so it was fun to have a ton of matches while I was there.  I plan on going back in May, so that will be fun.   I also finally met Sybil Starr!!  What a sweet girl and she was a blast to wrestle.  I plan on doing it again when I go back in May if she will have me.

I will be sharing some pics with you soon.  Haven’t uploaded them yet, but I promise I will.

I just wanted to pop on here and wish everyone a Happy Valentine’s Day.   Thanks for being a fan and a friend.  I really appreciate your support.

On a sad note, I got some bad news.  My best friend got diagnosed with MS.  It was a shock.  She is in her early 30’s and so full of life.  I read her email (it is too hard for her to talk about it right now) and I started to cry.  Why is it that the best people in the world have something like that happen to them?  It really makes me mad.  I am flying out to LA on WED and am going to hang out with her.  I think I am going to plan on going back there a little more often for some support.  She means the world to me and it really makes me sad to see her suffering with this knowledge.

Sorry to be a bit of a bummer at the end of the blog.  Just wanted to let you know what was going on.  I am going to try and blog more.  I promise.  Right after my trip to LA, I am heading to Ireland, so I will be gone around a week.  I will definitely have pics to share from that trip and am really looking forward to it.  Life is so short and so unexpected.  It makes me want to live it even more than I already am.  I don’t want to miss anything.

In March things will slow for me a little starting in Mid March.  I am having surgery and will be out for 2 weeks so I should have plenty of time to blog.   It isn’t anything too serious so don’t worry.

Thanks everyone.

xoxo

Tomiko

I have been super busy with editing, video production and modeling/acting work. It kind of just all piled up on me.

I have been mousing so much with being at the computer a lot that I actually sprained my hand if you can believe it!  I am leaving for Dulles tomorrow…actually working in Fairfax.  Hopefully my wrist feels better.  It is even a challenge to type since it is my right hand that got messed up.

I just wanted to pop in here and say HI.

I really am going to try and blog more on a daily basis when I am in town.  Have you ever felt overwhelmed?  I totally am feeling that way.  Sheesh.  I can’t complain though.  I am thankful to be working this much.

Anyway, just wanted to tell you all thank you.

I have pics from my bday that I will share with you as soon as I upload it on my computer. 

Thanks for your patience!

Lots of exciting things coming up.

xoxo
Tomiko