It just seems like the time goes by so fast and I just don’t blog that much.  I thought today was a good day for a blog.  I did a lot of thinking on my drive home from Los Angeles.

I was there mainly to see my best friend, Erika.  She is my friend who was diagnosed with MS 2 years ago.  You will remember that I did the ride for her last Sept and I am doing it again.  The hills are very difficult on the first day and the second day is not as bad, but still a good ride.  Even with that knowledge, and honestly not wanting to go through that painful ride again, I had to push that thought aside and think about Erika.  When she asked if I would do the ride, I could not say, “No.”

The pain I feel from the ride is nothing compared to what she is going through.  This visit was really tough.  She is now walking with a cane and I took her in for a brain scan…one of many that she has had to go through.  On my last visit, I took her in for a brain scan and a spinal scan.  She now has a handicap sign for her car.  It was really tough to see that.  It was really tough to see how tired she is.  It was tough to see her have to take a seat a lot more.  It was even tougher to witness her fall down.

I wanted to cry a couple of times but I saved the tears for my ride home.  I don’t want her to see this.  I want to stay upbeat and positive.  We did P90X and she sat on a chair but at least we got her moving.  I guess that is the key is to remain as active as possible.  She wants to do the charity ride but she is not sure that she will be able to do it.  I told her if she does, I will ride with her and we will have a car pick us up to take us up the harder hills.  I plan on staying by her side the whole time.

She is one of the warmest, caring people I know.  I love Erika like she is my sister.  There is nothing I would not do for her.  I never ask for money from anyone, but I am going to just ask if people could please donate to this cause.  Who knows…maybe that extra dollar leads to a cure for the disease.  It all adds up.  $10 is nothing to donate.

I understand that the economy is bad, and I am taking a whole week off from working (I work freelance so every day counts) just so I can go to San Francisco and do this ride.  I don’t need any gifts.  The best gift would be a donation to this charity.  It is easy to do.  Click on this link below.  Click on the button donate to Tomiko.  It will lead you through the pages to donate.  It’s very simple. You can also look at the side bar on the side where it say MS CHARITY RIDE 2011 and press that button to get to the link.  Your thoughtfulness will be so appreciated.

I don’t know what else to do to help her.

Thank you for listening and thanks for being fans.

xo

Tomiko

http://main.nationalmssociety.org/site/TR?px=7713446&pg=personal&fr_id=16061

Sincerely,
Tomiko

http://main.nationalmssociety.org/site/TR?px=7713446&pg=personal&fr_id=16061

It has been so emotional for me this year.  Bad news with so many friends with health issues, deaths…just brutal.

I know that there are just some years that are like that, but it still makes me sad.

On a positive note, I have been doing a lot of work and working with some great people.  I am excited about the stories I have been doing for my clip stores.

I don’t think I give enough credit to Chuck, but he truly comes up with some really great stories for my stores.  He is super creative with the storylines as well as the characters.  It is really fun shooting with him as well as just shooting people with his storylines.  Anyone that has ever done one of his stories, really has fun.

I also have some great fans that have sent me stories that have been great as well.  I feel very fortunate that I have such nice people as fans that only want to help me.  They also give me some good advice I take to heart on improvements.  Thanks to all of you for that! 

I have some really busy months coming up and I am happy to tell you that I have one of my best friends, Savannah, coming out to Las Vegas in late June.  If you want to do any customs with her, let me know.  She doesn’t come out to Vegas a lot…once a year if I am lucky.  I will also be working with another close friend that lives in Vegas…Dragonlily.  I am going to work with both of them at the same time so if you want them both for a custom, that would work.

Anyway, I think seeing my friends will definitely help boost my spirits.  I think friendship is good for the soul.

Take care and hope to blog again soon.

Tomiko

Junior Rest in Peace my Sweet Baby Boy

This cat was so full of personality.  He was clever and always very funny.  He brought a smile to my face and was there for so many bad times and helped me pull through.  I miss him so much.  To see him have a heart attack right in front of me and watch him suffer as the life was taken from him…to hear his last breath and then see his still little body…to have to pick him up in a towel and put him in a bag…to call the number of a service to pick him up and have him turned to ashes…it was a rough late night early AM for me.  I loved him so much and he was so dear to me.

I feel so guilty that I traveled so much.  I felt like a terrible person.  It made me reflect on my life.

Now I feel bad for my last cat, Squeaky.  I don’t feel like I am giving her the attention I gave Junior.  I have lost two cats that I was so close to and never could feel close to her.  I am trying my best, but the sleep deprivation is making me a little short.

I have sleepy pills to help, but I still find that I have a lot of sleepless nights.

Thanks for listening.

Tomiko

I recently went to Reno and got to meet up with an old friend, Renobinder (Author Bruin).  He was responsible for me shooting customs right at the beginning and has been a great friend.  His rigging is really awesome and the clips that I shot there with him are going to be great.  I can’t wait to put them up…all going on my Superheroine store!  Also, I shot with a really awesome and beautiful model, Ashli.  She has never shot video and is new to fetish and she really rocked it. She is half native American so you know her look is going to be quite exotic.  She plays a great villain and I am sure that you are really going to like her in the clips.  I can’t wait to see what people say.

My wrestling has been still going strong.  I am still doing my sessions and getting to wrestle nice people.  I am also still working with webringit and having fun with a pro wrestling company in Chicago.

I feel very blessed to be so fortunate especially with these hard economic times.  I really want to thank everyone for their support (friends and fans).  I really appreciate it.

My heart is full of love right now.  Tender love.  I have a little skip in my walk and there is a smile on my face.  It has helped me through some stressful time with what is going on in Japan, and I am glad that it is there.

Thank you so much for reading.

Goodnight.

xo

Tomiko

Been on a health kick since I found out that I am 100% healthy.  I have decided not to take life for granted and to try things and enjoy as much as I can.

I did this cool charity run on Saturday.  LVTC Trot Up For Spirit.  It is a charity that uses horses for mentally and physically ill children as well as veterans.  It’s great therapy and I felt pretty good about doing this event for this charity.  The people were very nice and since it was my first 5K I was pretty excited to see how I would do.

It was super chilly but it made the run refreshing.  I placed 4th in my age group and 10th in all women participating.

For overall, I was number 33 out of 77 people.  I was pretty excited about that!  Not bad for my first race and I am not even a runner!

I thought it would be a good idea to start doing some 5k races so I am prepped for the sprint triathlon in late March.  I know I have the bike down after doing the century and a half ride for MS.

The next 5 K I am doing is Feb 5 and is for the Make A Wish Foundation.  It will be in Las Vegas.  I am going to start running more and see if I can improve my time.

I am also thinking about doing the Las Vegas Fat Boy 5 K in later Feb, and possibly a cool mud run in AZ in later April.  It looks like a total blast!  I will share a link with you in a future blog…promise.

I started training this morning for my swim part.  It was really difficult so I know that will be the challenge.  My gf came along to give me any tips I need for technique but she thought I looked really good….who would have thought?  lol

I just need to work on my endurance.  Swimming is a totally different beast when it comes to exercise.

I can’t believe I am going to be 44 this month.  I certainly don’t feel anywhere close to that age.  I am actually feeling great.  I changed my diet and cut out red meat entirely.  I mainly have seafood and tofu…don’t really eat chicken or turkey anymore, but may occasionally have that if I feel like it.  I have to tell you…I have tons of energy.

I saw the doc on Friday and she was really pleased with my test results.  Whatever I am doing is working and I am so relieved I can cry.  I am looking forward to this year and the surprises it will bring.  I feel like I have been given another chance at life, and I just want to really go for it and really live fully.

I can truly tell you that I am feeling happy.  Thank you for being there for me and reading my rather sad blogs.  I went through some stuff as you know, but I am so much better now.

I am going to call it a night.  I have been trying to get to bed at a reasonable time and get up early in the morning to start out my day with the gym

Have a wonderful week everyone and thank for stopping by.

xoxo

Tomiko

I am glad to put 2010 behind me.  There were some truly fun and great things that happened in that year, but so much sorrow, heartache and pain.  I am really looking forward to a new chapter, and I am hoping that there will be far less drama.  I guess that those major bumps in the road really make a person grow.  I feel like I have grown.  I would say I have grown stronger, but I am beginning to think that I may never find anyone to share my life with.

I am fortunate to have so many wonderful friends who I love dearly and a wonderful mom, stepdad, brother, sister-in-law, and niece (small family) who are such a major part of my life.

I am also very fortunate to have a successful career and something I enjoy so much I can’t believe I get to do this for a living.  I pinch myself every morning.

I always thought I would find someone who would fill my other half…and I thought I had found that person.  I opened myself completely up and took a really hard fall.  I guess it was open target practice.  The more I tried to be there, the more I was hit to the ground.  I just don’t get it.  I put effort in everything else and hit a home run, so why is it I can’t seem to hit a home run on my love life?

Isn’t ironic that here I am supposedly this popular person on the internet, but I can’t find anyone.  lol

I sit here at my desk editing clips late at night knowing I have to get up at 5:45 AM to head to the gym, but it is the only way I know how to deal with the pain inside…work work work.  Work until I am so exhausted that I will just pass out from fatigue.  That has been a daily ritual these days.

On the positive side, I am healthy again.  I have a doctor I see who monitors me and I am on the right medication.  I also have gotten approval to do the Sprint Triathlon in March, so I am very excited about that and look forward to the challenge.  I admit I am not a strong swimmer and I am guessing that part will be comical.  I don’t think dog paddling counts as swimming or does it?  I may be the only one out there doing that style in my wetsuit.  lol

I am going to have a friend video tape me doing the transitions as well as the finish line and I will share it on my site under “Adventures of Tomiko”.  I think it may be very entertaining to see my try and get the wet suit off.

I am also doing a partnership for a wrestling video company.  I won’t mention much right now, but it is going to be pretty exciting.  I am doing the producing and casting for it, and the concept is pretty cool.  You will hear more about that once I get it going.

I am super exhausted, but thought  would take a minute to write to all of you and thank you for your support for the past years and hopefully the upcoming years.  Without you, I would have no career.  Thank you so much.

Happy New Year.

xo

Tomiko

Anyway, I am writing this to let you know that I am OK.  I mean I really am OK.  It was a false alarm on my health and I am looking at life through a fresh pair of eyes.  I am sorry that I haven’t been good at keeping up with my blogs.  It’s been an emotional journey for me and with my endless traveling and hectic schedule, it has kept me from really being able to sit down and reflect.

I feel very fortunate to have a lot of good people in my life, and I have also been really fortunate to be working a lot this year.  With the economy the way it is, I am so grateful.

My clip stores have all been doing great and I want to thank you for that as well.  All the fans that have continued to support me…it makes me feel full of joy.  I was never popular in high school or even in my younger years, so this has been a real treat to even have any fans or people that even read this silly blog.  I never realized how many people did until people started to write me and ask me about things pertaining to what was written on this thing.

Doing the MS Bike ride was the highlight for me.  Seeing my girlfriend, Erika, rock it was amazing.  I did the ride…the whole 100 miles and 50 the next day.  I still can’t believe I did it, but when you have someone as close and dear to your heart as Erika, you want to do all that you can.  I get to see her next week and am looking forward to it.  She is a person so full of life and just a good person all the way around.  She is my best friend and I am lucky to have someone like her in my life.

There is also someone else that means the world to me.  He lives in Detroit and he is one of the most caring people I know.  He takes care of his 87 year old mother and he works very hard. He is the first person that offers to help someone and when he is your friend, he really is passionate about it.  I am lucky to have him in my life.  He was in a really bad motorcycle accident about a month ago and I flew out to help him out.  I am thankful that he lived.  6 broken ribs and a broken shoulder bone stinks, but at least he is alive.

There is another close friend of mine that I don’t know what I would do without him.  His name is Phil and he lives here in Vegas.  He takes care of my cats, picks up my mail, picks me up at the airport and drops me off when he can.  He has been a tremendous help.  He has also been there for me in my time of need. I can do enough for him to show my gratitude.

The funny thing, is there are a ton more people I can write about and they all live in different cities, but yet, they are always wanting to help and make things easier for me.  I am truly a lucky woman.  I don’t know what I did to deserve this, but I am so thankful.

I know…this sounds so sappy…I just was thinking tonight about all the special people out there that I have in my life and I guess I just wanted to write about it and show my gratitude.

I will try to blog more, but things are just so busy.  I hope to be able to keep up more with the blogging.

Have a great night and Happy early Thanksgiving.

xoxo

Tomiko

I also have some pics from Maine when I went camping to share and again, I haven’t edited and that was in June!

You know that I will take pics in Paris, but again…with all that is going on with travel, shoots, MS Ride prep, and health…I will try to get some of those up so I can share a little bit of my travels with you.

My career is going very well and my clip stores are doing great.  I just wanted to thank you for your support on this.

Also, I have been getting more donations for my MS Ride and want to thank you all for that.  I really appreciate it.  There is still time if you still want to donate.  I have been riding as much as I can.  It has been challenging to get the time to ride, but I have been doing my best.

I am about to head to the airport so just wanted to say thank you for all the kind emails and also for your support.

I really appreciate it.

xo

Tomiko