I don’t think it’s been my year these last two years. My heart is aching right now for the loss of another pet. He was my beloved cat, Junior.
Junior Rest in Peace my Sweet Baby Boy
This cat was so full of personality. He was clever and always very funny. He brought a smile to my face and was there for so many bad times and helped me pull through. I miss him so much. To see him have a heart attack right in front of me and watch him suffer as the life was taken from him…to hear his last breath and then see his still little body…to have to pick him up in a towel and put him in a bag…to call the number of a service to pick him up and have him turned to ashes…it was a rough late night early AM for me. I loved him so much and he was so dear to me.
I feel so guilty that I traveled so much. I felt like a terrible person. It made me reflect on my life.
Now I feel bad for my last cat, Squeaky. I don’t feel like I am giving her the attention I gave Junior. I have lost two cats that I was so close to and never could feel close to her. I am trying my best, but the sleep deprivation is making me a little short.
I have sleepy pills to help, but I still find that I have a lot of sleepless nights.
Thanks for listening.
Tomiko
